just a {number}

I’ll admit, my relationship with the scale is a little unhealthy. It’s almost as if it calls my name every time I walk in the bathroom. I would weigh myself at least twice a day and freak out a little with any sudden change. But not anymore. I’m pledging with myself to go a month scale free. This is going to be quite difficult for me, but I’m up for the challenge. 

I need to know that the number on the scale does not define me. And it doesn’t define anyone, sure if you are over weight that’s a little different concern for health factors. But for a healthy weight that should not be something that consumes a person. Although, I know that there are so many factors that can change the number seeing a higher than wanted number is terrifying. This causes trying to lose weight is even more stressful because you are so focused on only one aspect of being healthy. I need to focus on how I look and feel about myself and not the number I see. This will (hopefully) lead to a healthier and happier life. And with that, my month long scale free journey has begun. Wish me luck. Remember: 

I AM MORE THAN JUST A NUMBER.
xo,

nik. 

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fall

I love fall. It’s my favorite fashion season! Olives, plums, and oranges how could you not!  Okay and blues and reds! Okay okay, fine I just love all the colors! Also, VESTS, it’s the perfect weather to wear them! This was my recent outfit with my J.Jill vest and 3/4 button down striped shirt from J. Crew factory. Paired with my favorite lipstick Estée Lauder shade rubellite. 

 

looking {up}

Bad things happen in 3s, but good things happen in 4s. This summer has been a roller coaster for me, but things are finally beginning to fall into place. If anything it’s taught me that no matter how low you feel there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. This was extremely hard to believe when you feel this way, but you have to know that it WILL get better no matter how much you don’t believe it. Trust me I didn’t at times, but it does. 

I finally found a job, and things are just going well in my life. Looking back at this summer I didn’t know how I would make it through. Each day getting out of bed was a chore and the amount of tears I cried was unreal. I continued to push through, it wasn’t easy but it was the only option.  You just need to remember each day is a new day. And one more day closer to reaching happiness. I know I’ve mentioned before how lucky I am to have the people I do in my life. But I truly mean that, I don’t know how how would have gotten through without the support of all my loved ones. I know I’m only on a portion of my journey, but so far I couldn’t be more happier with life. *Words I haven’t said in months. 

Just remember the wise words of Albus Dumbledore “happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” 

xo,
nik. 

just {living}

Sorry I haven’t wrote in a while, it’s mostly because there hasn’t been much to be said. Life is sort of just moving along but you’re just standing there watching it pass. Neither going with the flow or against it, just a tiny pebble in this place we call life.